shuichi
02-12-2009, 12:00 AM
I rapidly tire of pawn. not just the game, no, but the whole community. It loses its' luster after a while.
I'm trying to find a reason to keep playing. I was considering applying to be a PA, but I decided to shoot that dream down myself.
You see, I've figured it out. The pawn community is extremely biased. If you don't have friends in high places, you'll find yourself going nowhere fast. There's no point in applying for something that I'll be denied anyways. There's no point in bothering to want what I can't have; yet I want for it just the same.
The crux of the matter: the endeavor is pointless. I'll not waste my time trying to gain the impossible.
I'm trying to find a reason to keep playing. I was considering applying to be a PA, but I decided to shoot that dream down myself.
You see, I've figured it out. The pawn community is extremely biased. If you don't have friends in high places, you'll find yourself going nowhere fast. There's no point in applying for something that I'll be denied anyways. There's no point in bothering to want what I can't have; yet I want for it just the same.
The crux of the matter: the endeavor is pointless. I'll not waste my time trying to gain the impossible.